There has been a void in my life.
Although I deny it, there really is. Why can't I look at a guy as a friend? I've been desperately searching for something. But I was mistaken. As I look around, I can't concentrate. There's something else I need. Even if I find him, it will only cause more drama or 'doki doki sa'. I don't like that. Right now, it's probably only like that because I'm nervous about what my parents will do or what they will think. Even though I say I don't care... Apparently, I do. Why can't I be more honest? To everyone else.. but most importantly, I've been lying to myself.